Sodomize me, cap'n!

It's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile since I can say I love myself as well and
And it's been awhile since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile but I can still remember just the way you taste

Yellow- Coldplay

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you

What do you do when you realize you are alone? The one I poured so much of myself into is gone. He knows it, and I know itl But there's nothing either one of us can do. My heart breaks into smaller pieces every day. I don't know how to save us. I don't know how to save him from burning out. The fire I love in him is smoldering, I think. I don't know how to save myself from complete permanent destruction. How can I fix something that isn't in my hands; out of my control--my love, my life--has been wretched from my passionate embrace by a cold, common reality, where I cannot follow. There is a world behind drawn shades that I am shielded from by youth, by blissful, blinding ignorance that I can't shake off. The shadows that are made by this heart of darkness--cruel, mundane existance--don't disappear with the light of my love...but they skirt around me instead, flickering in a frenzied, yet furtive dance...always there, but just that much harder for me to see. All the choice I have is to wait, rocking with my face in my hands, sobbing for the world I cannot see, and the beautiful boy I have lost...and as my heart breaks, shatters, and crumbles till it is nothing but dust and sparkling glitter...I wonder how long I must die while yet I still live. And when I can finally stop to pick up the pieces of my love, will there be anything left for my fingers to grasp?